How I started

Meditation oh no such a hard thing and it was me  making so many excuses everyday and when one day I was sitting under a tree my inner Self asked me a question ,How can I help you ,Pawan when you already know the answers,the way. Suddenly I realized I was taught such rubbish in my school,college and it was great of me I left my education and better we called uneducated then learning rubbish(sorry if someone takes this to heart). I am one person lost ,lost ways again and again and all because I seldom learned from mistakes…but the self wanting  to help me came as a blessing which made me start the journey,journey into the inner being,the real me,who I am rather than be lost in who I had become.

The easy ways I started…..started meditating for very short period-started with 1 minute sometimes 10 sometimes 15 times a day and suddenly body was finding it easy. Sometimes did not sit started doing it while walking or doing some work at my father’s shop. Simply inhaled and exhaled watching the breath touching the navel( will write about this more). Three parts this meditation touches ,moves by 1.physically (body),2.egoism(mind) and 3.spiritualism(soul). When I started after closing the eyes, the first thought which always came was see ,Pawan it is so dark what will you find here,everything is outside(my mind loves me..smiles). Then another question popped up can you quiet me(mind) ,my soul suddenly answered let me just relax you do what you want to….slowly I got to sit for 10-15 minutes and my mind started to be silent and I felt relaxed. Always try shorter moments and feel connection.Just try and feel relaxed as the mind will continue its chattering ,all we need is be in the moment let mind go here and there.


Quotes I live on—-love

“In real love there is no relationship, because there are not two persons to be related to.  In real love there is only love, a flowering, a fragrance, a melting, a merging.  Only in egoistic love are there two persons, the lover and the loved.  And whenever there is the lover and the loved, love disappears.  Whenever there is love, the lover and the beloved both disappear into love.” —OSHO—

“When you don’t need a person at all, when you are totally sufficient unto yourself, when you can be alone and tremendously happy and ecstatic, then love is possible.  But then, too, you cannot be certain whether the other’s love is real or not – you can be certain about only one thing: whether your love is real.  How can you be certain about the other?  But then there is no need.  This continuous anxiety about whether the other’s love is real or not simply shows one thing: that your love is not real.  Otherwise, who bothers?  Why be worried about it?  Enjoy it while it lasts, be together while you can be together!  It is a fiction, but you need fiction.” —OSHO—

As I open my egoless eyes

As I move forward and look at Love

I see that Love is an open sky.

Love is as I am on the wing.

But unbounded sky is creating fears.

I see to drop the ego is very painful

All because I have been taught to cultivate the ego.

Thinking that ego is my precious treasure.

I go on decorating it more.

Now I see what is in reality needed.

To be in true love the ego needs to die.

This idea to drop ego itself  is painful.

It is because I worked whole life for it to create.

Now I see this ego very ugly because

It gives me idea that “I am separate from existence.”

This idea is ugly because it is untrue.

This idea is illusory, that each person is a person, not a presence.

The truth is that there is no person at all in the world

There is only presence.

When ego is gone I am not separate from the whole.

When ego is gone I am part of the whole.