Hey wait what is wrong with you……I turned around to see who is speaking? No one there to be seen. I started walking further and the voice came again,what is wrong with you….I stopped and looked around,no one again. Got to read two post at wordpress ,spending some time walking under the sky ,hugging the trees and playing with the lovely leaves….I know who was talking to me. It was my inner voice which somehow had stopped talking or say I was too noisy that I could not hear it for so many days.
I sat down on the grass and tried listening to the most cute sweet beautiful and calming voice.,it has been months now since I heard such pleasant voice .(na no more repeating story). The voice asked me how can someone who gave you happiness ,made you smile give you pain and tears,please answer. I was taken back ,yes how can she be the reason for both ,I mean either I didn’t want to know or even after knowing was not accepting that it is just me who is creating the whole drama of pain and hurt…..yes a bit harsh reality to accept but I had to ,I have to and only then it is possible for me to be again the real me. It may be just my story and maybe stories of many but we ourselves create pain,hurt and misery for us and somehow become addictive and just like to stay in there.
Was I not happy before she came into my life–yes I was . Then why cannot you be happy again even if she left you. If you were happy before her too that means you are happy with self .Accept yourself and you will be happy again. The pain you creating is not physical pain ,it is self created pain and if you can dissolve the psychological pain, no problem is left. Then you will start living in the moment. “Psychological” means: of the past, of the future, never of the present. Mind never exists in the present. In the present reality exists, not the mind. Mind exists in the past and the future, and in past and future reality does not exist. In fact, mind and reality never come across each other. They have never seen each other’s face. Reality remains unknown to mind, and mind remains unknown to reality.
- The first step toward finding happiness after having been hurt is to understand why we are hurt, to get to the root of everything that makes the memories hard. There’s no guarantee that we will be able to communicate how we feel to the person who hurt us and even if we can there’s no guarantee they’ll respond how we want them to. But better to say what we want to so I started writing all in my journal.
- No amount of reassurance will change what happened. We can’t find happiness by holding onto a painful story, trying to place in new, brighter light. We can only find happiness when we let it go and make room for something better.
- We can either punish self and submit to misery or forgive self and create the possibility of happiness. It comes down to whether we decide to dwell or move on. Which do we choose: anger with ourselves and prolonged pain, or forgiveness and the potential for peace? Choice is ours and only ours. Need to think and move on.
- The only way to experience happiness is to take responsibility for creating it, whether other people made it easy for you or not. We are not responsible for what happened to us in the past but now only how we keep reacting is our responsibility. Why let someone who hurt us in the past have power over our present?
We all deserve to feel happy. We all deserve peace. Thing we all have in common is that only we can provide those things for ourselves. with some questions to self,some writings in journal,shedding some tears ,bearing pain and hurt under the tree the self asked me to get up and get going and let me be honest in some last 3-4 hours my eyes are not wet and I trust myself and am grateful to Source that my eyes will no more shed tears .
Not a fiction story nor a post about motivation ,simply written by a 35 year old guy who was crying for the loss of his Soul Mate,his first love who left the love story incomplete…but no more complains or no more triggers allowed to hurt me and make my life miserable again. Already wrote a post thanking her and Source and with this post I am grateful to all beautiful souls who have helped me recover and grateful to Thee and Universe for allowing me to be healed.