Life cannot be lived through no, and those who try to live life through no or have to accept it simply go on missing real life. No is like darkness. Darkness has no real existence; it is simply the absence of light.
Do I ask lots,do I want more ,am I demanding lots…………no ,never I really never did ever ask too much ,I never can. All I asked was some of your love with no conditions attached. All I asked was I want to do what I really feel I can. All I asked was your permission,your hand to hold me …..I never asked you to promise me everything I need ,all I asked please let me be the child I am.All I asked was love me as you want but ………I just wanted to be happy why was it so hard for you to understand.
“Love has to be of the quality that gives freedom, not new chains for you; a love that gives you wings and supports you to fly as high as possible.” ~ OSHO~
When I was born I guess my father had already expected too much from me . Father all I wanted was to be a very good son but it seems to you I failed,failed because your defination of good son is so very different…all I was thinking that by respecting you is enough,by obeying you the way was enough but I see that you consider me as a failure. Is it my mistake that I don’t want to be as you want ,aren’t you wrong in demanding too much .I stop my complains,I don’t blame you because you and I are sailing on two different —boats in the ocean of life.
When I grew up and went to school all I wanted was to study that which would help me be who I want to be in life but you teachers may had other defination of life. I don’t blame you because maybe that was what you learned but I saw life in different angle so I did argue and I argued because I wanted to grow. You decided to call me rebel was is it so very wrong to be a rebel. Was I again wrong if I wanted to be the real me ,please understand your boat and my boat are different.
When I was growing ,mom all I wanted was you to support me and care,I am not blaming you because you care,you love me I know. But you gave much importance to my father all because he was the main source who paid all bills,is it right mother.Had I been born with some defect and could not get up from bad would you treat me the same way.I am so sure you understood your son is a little different but made you then not accept me as I am. My journey your journey are different mom.
When my sister was born I was the happiest because now I knew I have someone with whom I can share what I really want,where I want to go but sister how can you say I am wrong all because our father ,mother,teachers say it.I showed you my world just asking you to say it is beautiful but you wanted to be loved by others more so you thought my world is not good because it is different.Sister try and see your path and my path are not and never can be same.
When I was with you friends I tried to say my true feelings,I use to share my journey with you,I tried to show you my world …..but again you too thought I was wrong all because I was not the same as you.You wanted me to say what you wanted to hear but I was blunt ,honest,lived in reality therefore always spoke what was important for you to listen know and this made you think I am wrong. I loved you all,cared for you but maybe you failed to understand now I see your thoughts and my thoughts were flowing in different directions of life we want.
When I met you and slowly understood you,I really did I fell in love and I love you still.All I asked was to hold me tight ,hide me in your arms because all I saw till here in my life was everyone leaving me .All I excepted was that you try and sit with me ,holding arms I wanted to try and show you my life ,my world…but you too it seems had different meaning of love.I guess you wanted the same kind of person you have grown up seeing. No I never will complain because for you my world and your world were different . All I see is that I could not be of worth you wanted.,I am sorry.
Thus all I wanted was to be a son of my father,good student of the teachers,a very nice son of my mom,a loving brother,a good friend,a heart lover but see on this journey of live everyone keeps dropping me from their path…….Is it my mistake if all I want is to be me?
NO my dear Soul I am sorry to hurt you ,your feelings ,I should have rewritten my script before you came to my body to help me see this lovely Universe.But as I am yours ,I know I can and I will be moving ,moving with confidence,moving with smiles.All needed to happen you say and what a beautiful lesson you say I have learned….
If there is an eagerness in my heart and I still am moving,I am alive.
If there are sparks of dreams in my eyes and I still am moving,I am alive.
If I am living freely like the wind ,I am alive.
If every moment I am meeting with open arms,I am alive.
If I know to watch the weather as new,I am alive.
If there is bewilderment in my eyes,I am alive.
Not all will understand your journey and many times many won’t even try to understand and this is human please don’t feel sad and get stuck there ,there is so much to explore ,keep moving and say to your own self ,you simply rock. Try and see that the other person totally always will not be able to understand us. If we are expecting the other to understand us we need to see the limitations,possibilities,needs,capabilities of that person and once we understand this it means we have accepted him as he is,so easy for us to let go and move on…..there is no complains,no regrets,no blames now.
All I now am going to do is what I want to be and it is now me,myself who decides whatever happens to my life.So I include and accept everyone into my own understanding.